My time in Up with People has come to a close and I've been home for nearly a month now. The transition back into my normal, everyday life wasn't nearly as difficult as I had anticipated it being. Up with People is just like anything else in this world; if you do it for too long you grow tired of it. Toward the end of the tour, it was more of a struggle than anything I've ever done in my life. I found myself having to muster up the energy to do things that once excited me and made me want to do my best. I found the weekly travel days to be mundane and tedious instead of exhilarating and mysterious. Instead of wondering about where we were going next and what it would be like, I found myself uninterested and content with just stepping off the bus in whatever the next city may have been with little to no knowledge of my surroundings. Maybe it was the mystery of being in a new place that appealed to me, or maybe it was my body telling me that being in a new city every week was something that was incredibly hard to adjust to but regardless of the meaning, I had become disenchanted with the Up with People lifestyle. The only thing I found myself looking forward to was the day that I would return home to see the family and friends that I missed so much. It's safe to say that I was way homesick.
Don't get me wrong. Up with People provided me with so many great opportunities to broaden my horizons but it also taught me that there's nothing wrong with being critical at all. As a matter of fact, Up with People taught me the value of not only being a critical and proactive person but of being a critical thinker. Why should we accept things as they are? Why should something be true just because someone older and presumably wiser says so? What does it mean to be diverse and why should I be? What's wrong with asking questions; demanding answers to legitimate questions? By and large, I found that "taking it to the source" and "telling it like it is," two very commonly preached proverbs of Up with People, wasn't always acceptable. I learned that theoretical "authority" in a group of supposed equals was more important than open and honest discussion between two equals. And above all else I learned that in a large group of people, whether it's high school, or a group of young humanitarians, the dynamic will always be the same.
Now that it's all said and done, I've asked myself the question several times of whether I'd do it all over again or not. I have plenty of reasons to say that I'd reject the offer to travel in UWP if I knew then what I now know but on the inverse, I have so many more to persuade me to say yes. The people I met, the families I lived with, the places I saw, and the things I learned from others while traveling outweigh the negatives by far and if given the opportunity to do it all over, I'd opt to do so without the least bit of hesitation.
Now, what's next for me?